When I don't write on this blog now, I miss it. Because thinking about what to write has become a way of pondering what's new in my life and work, when I don't blog I am a little cut-off from my own voice. Less time to express and more time to just plain "do." I'm conscious, though, that too much time just "doing" becomes a habit and might take me in directions I didn't intend to go.
This is simply life: Mom -- who is visiting me now in Zurich for two weeks -- watched how I'm working these days. She commented that sometimes you simply have periods in life that are so busy you can only keep-up. You just hope that all of life isn't so full.
When she was around my age, she was teaching school and raising four pre-teenage children. Tired all the time she said. No life of her own. "Just a slave to what everyone else needed."
That was for a time the consequence of something Mom wanted -- children -- that turned out just a little differently than planned (triplet sons, plus me a bit older). And so you can live the life you choose, yet it still throws you some challenges along the way.
Seems we often become slaves to other needs by making choices to do things we want to do or the things we think we should do to be a good friend, colleague, daughter, mother, partner, etc. That's a fine balance to keep some space for yourself while doing the things that are "important."
Like today, I'm writing this blog for 10 minutes on a Sunday morning -- because Mom is taking a shower and I can find a little time to squeeze in-between. I'm happier now for being back on my blog!
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