Last Wednesday, I stepped out of my apartment door and made a dead halt not two feet further: I smelled cut grass, heard a buzzing lawnmower. Ah, what a lovely first moment of Spring.
Next morning; same dead halt. Turned around to find different shoes for snow. It was April 1st, no joke!
Two days later (Easter Saturday, they call it here), I spent hours in my favorite garden center. I have to drive 45 minutes to get there. (A friend said yesterday that he thinks it is amazing I go to a garden center for the 10 plants I can fit on my balcony and garden box.) Yet when I took a little coffee break overlooking the plants, with a mountain view through the window, I realized suddenly I was 100% relaxed and happy. I felt I was in the middle of my garden dream. I can see it all in my mind and hope I will plant it one day. It starts there. I needed nothing more and nowhere else right then.
Then there was this morning. Cold. Errands to run. Car noise to check. Carpenter to meet in office. Emails to return. Phone calls. And, a little ear ache that annoyed me now long enough to stop by and check that too. Nice doctor first asked if my reported dizzy feeling when lying down came from blood rushes of a thin person not eating enough protein. I smiled while thinking, I know the difference between hunger pains and my ear hurting. Sure enough, he took a look and was surprised by a little infection. Stuck a strip with antibiotics in and told me I should leave it there "just four days. " I smiled while thinking, you're not the one with the creamy thing stuck in your ear! Four day?!
Tonight on my walk home, I halted again, this time near my favorite sitting rock, and forgot my ear ache, my dream garden, that it snowed in April - all those moods that sneaked up on me good and bad. Motivation is something much deeper and more powerful. Like watching the first really good sunset of Spring.
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